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A Picture To Burn!
Monday, December 31, 2012 @ 2:23 AM | 0 Comment [s]
Assalamualaikum, Hai :)
You,
Thanks
for showing me the true you. Just can’t imagine that I actually fall in love
with someone like you. I don’t even know since when I start to like you. But
what I can remember is when the first time I saw you at the canteen, I like you
and my heart beats fast. Maybe it’s first sight love. Haha. It’s funny. I try
to greet you. One day, you start the conversation first in social network. Start from that day, we become closer and closer.
When you have finished your studies in secondary school, it’s hard for me to see
you around the school. Our first met at the library. You become my addmath’s
teacher. A couple days later, you come to school and teach me addmath,
chemistry and physics. Thank you for being my teacher.
I
gave you a chocholate cake and a mug cupcake a week before you left Terengganu.
You get offer from Unisel. I’m too worried that you will forget me and met
another girl there. So, I made a decision to confess my feeling towards you.
And I know before this you already get clue what my feeling is towards you.
It’s a relieve when I know you like me too. Only Allah knows how I feel that
time. Since that day, almost every day we contact each other. Before you left
Terengganu, you give me a book and a picture. You also play me a guitar. It’s a
song of Secondhand Serenade, fall for you. It is the very sweetest things and
memory you gave to me. I’m really appreciate it.
When
you start your life as a university student, you keep busy all the time with
the assignment thingy. You don’t have much time to contact me. But you still
find time to text and call me. When you have a semester break, you come back
here. You make a surprise for me. You come to school without my knowing. It’s
really surprise me and you give me cute smiley lollipop. Another day, we always
meet each other at A&W after school. You teach me addmath again and again.
I
see your changes when you start your life in second semester there. You treat
me like a friend. A new meet friend. Text or call me when you like to. I feel
curious and I ask him. He give me so many excuses. He told me to study hard. He
doesn’t want to be the obstacle for me to success. He want me to focus more on
my studies. At first, I can’t accept it. I also can’t believe it that I
actually cry for a man. Almost every night I cry for him. When I think about
it, I’m looks like an idiot. Crying for nothing. Sometimes,I feel
like I'm so stupid to keep missing you. I don't know why I miss you and don't
know how to stop missing you. Yes, it's hurt to miss and love someone who
doesn’t even realize it. If only you knew every feeling that I’ve been going
through, I bet you wouldn’t be trying to hurt me more than I already am.
Yet, I still buy and give him a gift for his
birthday and make a video for him. I sincere give him the gift. Not hoping for
anything. Then, I try to take his heart again. But nothing change. He still the
same. I can’t bear to face all the hurting anymore. I need to stop all these.
Although I’ve stop, it’s hard to forget someone who gave me much to remember.
Day
by day, I’m gonna realize how stupid I was. “Loving someone who doesn’t love
you, is like waiting for a boat at the airport”. Thank you for every single sweet
memories we had together. Congratulation cause you have found my replacement. I
can forgive, but I can’t simply forget what you’ve done to me. At the same
time, I thank God because you taught me to be stronger. Now,I thank God as He has shown me the
truth. Let bygones be bygones. I'll try to forget you and show you
that I don't need you in my life so you can stop telling me to get away of your
life. You shock me into pain . I'll be stronger. Stronger than you can imagine.
As far as I'm concerned, you are just another picture to burn !
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